Friday, September 28, 2007

Thinking about this & that.......


My dear friend Karen has turned me on to an amazing creative person, Keri Smith, without her even knowing it. To see how I was lead to Keri's doorstep (so to speak), check out Karen's entry called "Wish Tree in Tarrytown...". Anyway...I'm beginning to feel a bit inspired again & want to come up with my next project and/or batch~o~cards. I keep reading & re-reading the list of inspirational/creative ideas Keri has listed on the right hand side of her main page. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...


On another note...& I hope I'm not jinxing myself here...I'm in the process of quitting smoking after 23 years of this miserable habit. I started taking a prescription medication called Chantix on Monday & have set my quit date as Monday, October 1st. With Chantix, you can still smoke during the first week of taking it as it slowly builds up in your system. By the time your quit date rolls around one week later, you should pretty much be uninterested/sick of cigarettes. Let me say for the record, I think I'm starting to get there a few days early. Not quite enough to quit tonight, but I think it's starting to kick in. The only thing is.....& this is so crazy sounding to me....I feel like I'm going to be tossing out an old friend & I also wonder "what the hell am I going to do with myself at all those times I would normally be smoking?" Am I going to sit/stand/whatever & just stare at myself or the empty ashtray? Am I going to put on some or all of the weight (15 lbs approx) that I had lost since February & become REALLY fat & hideous? Am I going to be a b*tch for the first days/weeks of my official quit? What if I fall back into smoking (even for 1 day) & disappoint myself & everyone around me that I care about? So many questions & so few answers.


I know that this is the right decision to make for so many reasons on so many levels, but I have so many self~doubts. I have such an addictive personality anyway, never mind the smoking. Has anyone out there quit smoking (or in the process of quitting smoking right now) & have any tips or words of encouragement? I really need them right about now!

5 comments:

Phinney said...

I'm here. I am so totally happy for you that you are quitting smoking I can't even tell you! On June 25th it was 7 years for me since the day I quit. I used a patch for 4 days, it was stressful, but my motivation won!! I tapped my fingers and played with my hands A LOT while going through withdrawals. And rubbed the patch on my arm. BUT I DID IT!! I quit mainly for my son & I'm glad I did. You will be glad too. Don't worry about gaining weight...stay focused!! Just take one day at a time & call me if you need some support! Love you!!!! Phinney xo

Carly said...

Hey darlin :)

So good to hear from you, I didn't realize you were blogging/journaling again. :) The blog looks wonderful, and now that I know where you are, I can put you on my sidebar so I can visit more often. :)Have a lovely weekend sweetie, and once again, good job!

Always, Carly

Ellipsis
http://ellipsissuddenlycarly.blogspot.com

Becky said...

Nubby!! Nice to see you back in the bloggy world. I moved over to Blogger too.

http://ryanagi.blogspot.com

Auntie Karen said...

I was never a smoker but I grew up around smokers and know lots of smokers and ex-smokers. I have seen your "play room" and you have lots of detractions outside home too. You can call me any time and I'll help however I can. Come on girl, Be a quitter just this once!I would much rather hang out with a non smoker. I know you can do it!

IndigoSunMoon said...

Oh sweetie, I feel for you. I've tried to quit smoking so many times that I can't even count. I wish you the best of luck!
Love you!
Connie