Deep Breaths

"Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful." ~ Buddha

Once again, I know it has been a while since I've posted. I've been going through so much........I don't know........inner turmoil lately. Lots of anxiety & panic over all sorts of stuff, especially work. I've not been myself. I've been depressed. I wake up every morning with the only things that are making me glad are Skip, Lucy (our dog), Stella (our cat)........& that I'm still alive......still.....sometimes.....I wonder.

There are days that I am absolutely terrified to go into work. There are times that I want to just stay in the Tarrytown area, where I feel "safe". The way I've been feeling/acting/panicking has not only myself, but others concerned apparently.

I need some time off from work to shake it all out of my head & get back to real life, but I don't know how long that is or what it means exactly. I wish I could go to Montauk for at least a few days to be alone where I love it the most & meditate by the ocean.

I don't know what to do for myself or feel anymore really...........

Hmmmmmm....

Crush a Can Day is today. How flat can you squish it?

After you get done kicking the can around, you get the fun of crushing it too. Use it as a stress reliever to take out all of the frustrations of your day. See how flat you can get it. It will make you feel good. Go ahead, give it a big squeeze. There, now don't you feel better?
You can crush a can anyway you want. There's no rules. Just make sure to do so safely.

Have a very happy Crush a Can Day.

Found on Holiday Insights.

Head Noise

I'm still out here. Just been having a hard time lately. Tons of what I'm calling "head noise." Anxiety. Panic attacks daily. Must clear it out. I'm seeing the shrink Monday morning. May need meds to be altered. Will update on Wednesday when I've got more time.

I'm sorry I've been so quiet lately.

Is there anybody still out there?

Maybe I'm too boring/repetitive/depressing & should quit this blog.

Self affirmations are not working/worthless right now.

Anybody else having a hard time or "head noise" lately?

Why do I feel so alone?

Anybody out there?

Hello?

Echo......echo.......echo.......

One Last Post For Today...

Anyone out there in my tiny reader~land interested in postcards and/or swaps? I've recently set up a swap for unusual postcards at swap~bot. It's a pretty neat website with all sorts of swaps going on. If you're interested (as I'm trying to get as many participants as possible), you can click HERE to join my particular swap.

Whew.....3 posts in 1 day.....I think that's the most I've ever friggin' done! WOW!

School Lunches

Today, as children return to school, the Meme Express (http://memeexpress.blogspot.com/) is all about school lunches. Here are a few questions to whet your appetite:

Do you remember eating lunch at school?

Yes...very well, not only in high school (sheesh...25 year reunion next year!), but in elementary school. I always looked forward to lunch time throughout my school career.

Did you purchase your lunch or bring it with you?

In elementary school, I brought it with me, packed lovingly (& with a little note each day) by my mom. In high school, I bought lunch 99% of the time.

Did you carry a sack or a lunch box?

Until about 4th or 5th grade, I carried a lunch box. Growing up, we didn't have the fancy lunch boxes kids do today...we had the metal kind with the thermos inside. I loved picking out a lunch box & wish I still had some of them. My favorite was my first one with Pebbles & BamBam from the Flintstones. In 5th & 6th grades, I used a brown paper bag because by this point I thought I was "too old" for a lunch box.

If you had a lunch box, what was on it?

Oooops! Already answered this above!

What was your favorite school lunch?

In elementary school, probably either peanut butter & jelly or bologna sandwiches. In high school, I loved french fries.

What was your least favorite menu item?

Sloppy Joes in high school....there was just something nasty about them. To this day, I still don't like them.

Do you remember any of the cafeteria staff?

Yes...I can picture the cafeteria ladies in high school perfectly, but don't remember their names. They were probably around the age I am now & most of them were blonde & wore the standard hair net. One of them seemed especially "old." LOL

What friends sat with you for lunch?

I don't really remember sitting with any particular people in elementary school, just at the table for my class/grade. In high school, each grade kinda took over a certain section of the cafeteria, where they'd always sit (fresman always sat over here, seniors over there, etc). Class schedules varied from semester to semester, so I'd have different lunch mates at different times of the year.

Now how about you? If you've just read this, I'm officially tagging you for your blog/journal!

Just Because...

"Today is Just Because Day. Finally, you have a chance to do something without a rhyme or reason. Most often in life, we do things because we have to, or we want to, or it's expected of us. None of those reasons apply today.

Is there something you'd like to do, but there isn't a reason or logic for doing it? Well, today is the day to go out and do something "just because". It is most enjoyable if it is an uncommon, or unexpected activity or action. Perhaps, you have something in mind. If not, just go with the first thing that comes to your mind.

"Just because" activities often come from a "whim" or a "what if I" type of thought. We know you will quickly get the hang of this day, and have a lot of fun with it.

To get you started, here are some of our suggestions for Just Because Day :

Take an unplanned day of vacation

Visit someone you haven't seen in a while

Knock on someone's door and compliment them for their great lawn

Skip, don't walk

Spin a wheel, and bicycle in the opposite direction of where the arrow points.

Buy something you don't need.

Jump in a puddle

Walk backwards"

From the website http://holidayinsights.com/moreholidays/

Short Vacations & Obsessions

Aloha to my few but loyal readers! Skip & I are back from our short vacation to Westport, Mass & we had a great time. Why is it, though, that a vacation is never long enough & you always need another vacation after your vacation? Luckily, we are closing the store for the long (at least long for us...3 days) Labor Day weekend.

We relaxed, went to the beach with our pooch, shopped, ate good food & did some "Sunday Driving"...which leads me to these 2 pictures. The first being of the oldest general store in the U.S. & the other being of the only memorial that I know of to a rooster...the Rhode Island Red. Both are located in Adamsville, RI, just a little ways from where Skip's family cottage is. The gas prices when I left Westport were at $3.50, which is at least 30 cents a gallon or more lower than they are here where I live. How are gas prices where you live?

As for my obsession with Jason Hawes & "Ghost Hunters" (obsession being officially defined as "1.the domination of one's thoughts or feelings by a persistent idea, image, desire, etc. 2.the idea, image, desire, feeling, etc., itself.")....the new season starts on September 3rd. HOORAY!!!! I've been filling the time until it starts in with "Ghost Hunters International" & a few of "Paranormal State," but they're just not the same...not nearly as good.

Now........how about giving me some ideas/questions/whatever of what to write about here. My brain is empty & I need some input! Thanks!